At first, I wasn’t sure about him. I didn’t think I could trust him with my feelings, thoughts, fears, and innermost desires. Some said he had lived a rough life with lots of rejection. I’ve had enough rejection in my life without having to deal with someone else’s problems.
Nevertheless, without looking for him, he kept showing up where I was with a welcoming smile, a kind hello and a gentle spirit. I was surprised he took an interest in my life and accepted me just as I was.
My defenses began to weaken and I found myself desiring a relationship with him. We began to spend more time together in the company of other people who knew and loved him. It seemed like a safe way to get to know him.
Eventually, I trusted him enough to be alone with him without distractions. There were things I was learning about him causing me to hunger for more understanding. Those innermost desires I have, he encouraged me to pursue them! He never belittled my feelings.
As I shared my fears of rejection, he showed me his love is unconditional and he treasured our friendship. A sense of peace and security started to come. When guilt, rejection and shame interrupted my sleep, I would turn to his friendly presence and be flooded with peace.
Even when I was hateful, mean, and neglected my friendship with him, this patient, kind man would gently speak the truth in love to me. He didn’t reject, threaten, or make demands of me. He acknowledged my poor behavior, explained how it hurt him and suggested a better way. He had such honesty without rejection. His love was so compelling that I wanted to change my behavior. I wanted to love him better. What kind of relationship was this?
Through his wise direction, he helped me through frustrations with family, work and life unlike anyone I had met before. Then he invited me into a more intimate friendship. He asked for a faithful commitment to spend our lives together in unity of purpose. The giving, forgiving, servant love of this man overwhelmed me with a passion to give my life completely to him. How could I say no?
Do you find yourself wanting to know this incredible man? Have you found this friendship of unconditional love and sharing of deepest thoughts, desires, joys, pain and yes even sin, without fear and rejection?
I am my Beloved’s and His desire is toward me! [Joyfully the radiant bride turned to Him, the One altogether lovely, Chief among ten thousand to her soul, and with unconcealed eagerness to begin her life of sweet companionship with Him, she answered] Make haste my Beloved, and come quickly, like a gazelle or a young hart [and take me to our waiting home] upon the mountain of spices. Song of Solomon 7:10 and 8:14 Amplified