A lonely misfit, I’ve rejected the well-meaning care and concern many have tried to show me. My heart doesn’t seem capable of forming meaningful relationships with anyone.
Except my mother. She died and left me alone. My father died before her. But I gave them trouble also. I would get so angry and just do things to hurt them and others. Then later, I would have some regret.
I just have to get the rage inside of me out. Cutting myself until I bleed helps a little but then the anger and rage returns. The same with torturing and killing animals. It helps for a little while and then I feel like I’ll explode.
My mother died, my girlfriend left me and the school expelled me. Ranting on social media does make me feel a little important. But maybe I should listen to those demonic voices I’ve been hearing lately and actually do what I’ve been threatening and become a professional school shooter!
It’s painful for me to even write these words. Unresolved anger, mental illness and lack of spiritual peace have caused many violent acts in recorded history.
Scientific studies have repeatedly shown mental and spiritual health problems negatively affect behavior and physical health. So, why have we neglected bringing up our children in the discipline and instruction that comes from God?
Knowing the faithful love of God personally, chases away the empty hole of loneliness and rejection. This faithful love causes me to recognize my own mess and receive God’s forgiveness.
God’s amazing love for me makes it a whole lot easier to diffuse my own vindictive anger and replace it with forgiveness for others who offend me.
So, why are we caving in to those who want prayer, the Bible and God out of schools, out of media posts and out of our lives? How many more godless generations and potential murderers will we raise before we return to the wisdom this nation was founded on.
Then if my people who are called by my name will humble themselves and pray and seek my face and turn from their wicked ways, I will hear from heaven and will forgive their sins and heal their land. (NLT: 2 Chronicles 7: 14)