Young In Him Blog


Posted on February 20th, by Bonnie in Blog. No Comments

A lonely misfit, I’ve rejected the well-meaning care and concern many have tried to show me. My heart doesn’t seem capable of forming meaningful relationships with anyone.

Except my mother. She died and left me alone. My father died before her. But I gave them trouble also. I would get so angry and just do things to hurt them and others. Then later, I would have some regret.

I just have to get the rage inside of me out. Cutting myself until I bleed helps a little but then the anger and rage returns. The same with torturing and killing animals. It helps for a little while and then I feel like I’ll explode.

My mother died, my girlfriend left me and the school expelled me. Ranting on social media does make me feel a little important. But maybe I should listen to those demonic voices I’ve been hearing lately and actually do what I’ve been threatening and become a professional school shooter!

It’s painful for me to even write these words. Unresolved anger, mental illness and lack of spiritual peace have caused many violent acts in recorded history.

Scientific studies have repeatedly shown mental and spiritual health problems negatively affect behavior … Read More »


Posted on February 13th, by Bonnie in Blog. No Comments

My Child…

You may not know me, but I know everything about you…Psalm 139:1 I know when you sit down and when you rise up…Psalm 139:2 I am familiar with all your ways …Psalm 139:3 Even the very hairs on your head are numbered …Matthew 10:29-31 For you were made in my image …Genesis 1:27 In me you live and move and have your being …Acts 17:28 For you are my offspring …Acts 17:28 I knew you even before you were conceived …Jeremiah 1:4-5 I chose you when I planned creation …Ephesians 1:11-12 You were not a mistake …Psalm 139:15-16 For all your days are written in my book …Psalm 139:15-16 I determined the exact time of your birth and where you would live …Acts 17:26 You are fearfully and wonderfully made …Psalm 139:14 I knit you together in your mother’s womb …Psalm 139:13 And brought you forth on the day you were born …Psalm 71:6 I have been misrepresented by those who don’t know me…John 8:41-44 I am not distant and angry, but am the complete expression of love …1 John 4:16 And it is my desire to lavish my love on you …1 John 3:1 Simply because you are … Read More »


Posted on January 23rd, by Bonnie in Blog. No Comments

“I really don’t want to. I’ve got a long list of things needing to be accomplished.” Wisdom replied, “If you take time to rest with me this morning and write a few words, you and others will receive a blessing.“

Heeding this advice, I did rest. As I rested, I expressed thanks for good health, stamina to continue weekly exercise and conviction to eat clean foods. Then my thoughts drifted to those dear to me who are in pain, poor health and struggling to live happy lives.

I will apologize right now. I’m sorry, but 40 years of nursing assessments are to blame. I sometimes look at human beings, assessing skin color, turgor, breathing habits, gait and build. These clues and many others can be fuel for my prayers.

Compassion is what drives those prayers for others well-being. When my physical self is uncomfortable, my thoughts can be distracted, grumpy, discouraged and in many other negative places.

When I’m more comfortable, I can rest peacefully, meditate, exercise, and join in fun and conversation. I can better hear wisdom’s still small voice encouraging, guiding my day. Life becomes filled with more good stuff.

Through trial and error, I’ve found my own determination doesn’t enable long-term practice … Read More »


Posted on January 9th, by Bonnie in Blog. No Comments

Each painful step up the stairs and into my home was a reminder of better things to come. My early morning scamper down 4 flights of stairs almost ended in a fall as my foot caught the carpet.  I righted myself and recognized prideful thoughts in my head saying, “You certainly are quite agile for your age.” Considering the backpack on one shoulder and purse on the other, these were foolish thoughts for an almost 65-year-old woman.

Silently I spoke to those foolish thoughts, “Thanks Father God for catching me. I’m sorry for not taking better care of myself. Help me accept safer practices as I age.” I went on to enjoy a busy day of errands and visits, all involving walking many pain free steps.

But sitting in the car for the final 2-hour drive home to Key Largo, I began experiencing painful aching and spasms in my right ankle.  I remembered my morning stumble and began to beat myself up with regret for such foolish behavior. Then I heard the comforting whisper in my spirit, “Love, gratitude, hope can cause you to overcome.” With a changed focus from pain and regret to gratitude and hope, I began thinking about all the … Read More »


Posted on December 19th, by Bonnie in Blog. No Comments

Growing up on a farm, I learned stables are drafty and damp. No matter how diligent the stable hands are; you will always find animal poop and the accompanying flies. The animals’ water isn’t filtered and the animals’ food is tossed in an unwashed trough.

Having spent a lifetime as a nurse, I’ve witnessed the pain and trauma suffered by individuals due to accidents and injuries. Fishhooks, knives and nails were never meant to penetrate one’s flesh. Without anesthesia and a surgical team, these experiences can be painful and messy.

As I ponder this joyful season of celebration, I can’t help but follow the thread of Jesus’ life from baby to man, from the stable to the cross. Logic tells me, “if you want to rescue someone from a bad situation; you better be strong and have the right plan and equipment.”

Yet, Jesus rescued my sin tainted self through a humble birth and humble death because his flesh isn’t sin tainted. So, I guess you could say he has the right equipment. He resurrected from death, so it seems he has supernatural strength. His Father God came up with the plan because he loves us and wants his kids with him always.

The … Read More »


Posted on December 12th, by Bonnie in Blog. No Comments

“We were married 44 wonderful years the day Ann took the car and died driving off the road into a deep ravine. Even though the Alzheimer’s caused her to forget my name, I didn’t mind taking care of her. It’s been two years, and I still miss her so.” Joel and myself listened as our friend Tom recounted details surrounding his life with Ann, her decline into Alzheimer’s and traumatic death.

Tom shared with us his grief filled stories many times before. He continued on, “I never expected her to get into the driver’s seat and drive away. She was always a woman who loved adventure but she hadn’t tried to drive for almost a year. Every day I look at her photos and breakdown. If she was still here, we could enjoy each other’s company.”

Patiently we listen to Tom’s stories of grief because we know tears and expressed sadness are important for healing after the death of a loved one. Expressed mourning, sorrow and guilt help to release bottled up pain and allow healthy healing.

I think Tom is stuck in his grief because he can’t seem to forgive himself for his lapse in Ann’s supervision resulting in her death.

“Tom, we … Read More »


Posted on December 5th, by Bonnie in Blog. 2 comments

Getting to know people is usually a delight to me. But typically, I don’t look forward to large social gatherings. Because of the noise, distractions and differing motives in attending large gatherings, I’ve found conversation can be dull and lack transparency.

The past weeks presented opportunities to be part of large gatherings. In anticipation of these social functions, I became aware of increasing tension in my neck, head and shoulders. This tension threatened to become an annoying headache. So, I sat myself down for a good transparent talking to.

“Bonnie, these social functions are an opportunity for you to encourage others with a smile and  a few words of compliments and hope. Maybe, if you went with the expectation that your presence might help others and others might be an encouragement to you, the experience might be enjoyable.”

As I did some stretching exercises, I pondered the truths I had just spoken to myself and followed with this prayer. “God, I’m sorry for the worry and stressful thoughts I’ve been entertaining. Help me to be thankful for these social opportunities. Help me to expect you to use them for all of our good. Give my mind and body peace so I’m not tortured … Read More »


Posted on November 7th, by Bonnie in Blog. No Comments

Three-year-old granddaughter Grace asked, “Can we make a birthday card for Papa Joel?” “Well, of course,” I replied. I collected the old greeting cards, scissors, glue and markers as she settled at the table ready to create.

“What kind of pictures do you think Papa Joel would like?” I asked. “Boats, Papa Joel likes boats,” Grace replied assuredly. The card came together with boats, Charlie Brown and Grace’s signature of a backwards G.

Grace then asked, “Could we decorate the house for Papa Joel’s birthday?” She went to my desk area and picked up a pad of pink, heart shaped sticky notes. “I could use these,” she said with a pleading look. Relieved I didn’t have to figure out how we were going to decorate, I quickly replied, “Sure, you can use the hearts.”

From the kitchen, to the living room, to bedrooms and finally the bathroom, walls, windows and furniture were decorated with pink sticky hearts. Of course they were mostly 3 feet off the ground, eye level for Grace. Papa Joel came home delighted as Grace, proud and pleased, shared all her loving creations.

Joel’s birthday celebration has come and gone but the hearts and cards remain happily displayed in our home. … Read More »


Posted on October 31st, by Bonnie in Blog. No Comments

             At first, my 11-year-old neighbor’s question surprised me. Fun loving Emily is usually carefree about life. “Could I ask you the meaning of a dream I had last night? I woke up scared and couldn’t get back to sleep.”

“Of course,” I replied, “I’ll try to help.” Emily continued, “In the dream I saw myself dead with really black eyes, just laying there. Nearby, was a scary creature with arrows looking something like the devil. “

“That dream would have alarmed me also. So why do you think you had the dream?’ I asked. “Maybe the devil was after me. I don’t really know,” Emily thoughtfully replied.

“Emily, do you know there is for real, good and evil, God and the devil?” I asked. “Yes!” She replied assuredly. I went on, “Do you know God loves you and wants you to have a good life filled with his protection? The devil wants to steal and destroy anything good in your life?”

“Yes, I believe those things are true,” Emily replied in agreement. I pressed on, “Do you know the sub-conscious mind is busy at work when we sleep, processing our past experiences. Both God thoughts and devil thoughts can come as we sleep … Read More »


Posted on October 24th, by Bonnie in Blog. No Comments

For weeks following Hurricane Irma, my sinuses were congested and my body dragged with fatigue. The emotional sights of all needing cleanup translated fatigue to my physical body. The removal and mulching of countless trees and brush from our neighborhoods accounted for watering eyes and sneezes.

But one recent early morning found me waking from an encouraging dream. I was riding my motorcycle, (yes, I used to ride one) through the beautiful heavens on up into God’s amazing throne room. Seated on the throne was Jesus, and I stopped my motorcycle right at his feet. He kindly gestured for me to come sit with him awhile.

I sensed he knew all my concerns and challenges. Rest, rejoice and receive were the words filling my consciousness as I sat tranquilly at Jesus feet. The dream ended and I awoke with a kind of knowing peace that said, “As you bring your concerns to me, I will deal with them. Your job is to rest, rejoice and receive from me.”

Those instructions seemed easy enough. Were these easy instructions going to cleanup our beautiful islands, bring much needed affordable housing and a thriving economy? I sense I need to give these huge needs to God … Read More »